We began the class by going around the room telling our names, and if it was our first child.
How fun this was.
Then the instructor told us to get in a comfy position with our partners behind us.
We were going to start by learning some relaxation techniques.
Then to my horror, without warning, she turned OFF the lights!!!
Larry could feel me tense up. He rubbed my arm. Letting me know he was there with me and it was okay.
Then she began to teach the class.
I heard nothing she was saying, because not only was I in the dark, she was whispering.
Then to my horror again, I heard the parents apparently answering questions.
Please, please don't let her ask me anything.
We laid there in the dark for what seemed like eternity.
I know they were talking and discussing things, because every now and then someone would be just loud enough I could hear parts of what they were saying.
To say the least, it was a nightmare.
Then the lights came back on and it was time for a break. Snacks and drinks.
Larry took one look at me and said, "you want to go?" I just nodded my head yes.
We slipped out the door without ever saying a word to anyone.
The minute we were out in the hallway, I burst into tears.
I was devastated. My first real important task as a mother and I failed.
The next day I went to see my chiropractor. He asked me how Lamaze went. I told him the story. Then he gave me the best advice anyone gave me my entire pregnancy (as far as labor and delivery) "You don't need Lamaze. Your body knows what to do. Trust it."
So I did. I had the most wonderful and perfect delivery. It went a beautifully as I had hoped it would.
The thing about this story that I find interesting is the fact that now, I would jump right in there and be like "Wooooohhhaaa,,,what are we doing here? I'm hearing impaired, I'm going to get nothing out of a class in the dark." Then see if we could reschedule for a Lamaze that would be more appropriate for my situation.
It really doesn't matter though, because in the end, it worked out.
I'm just so thankful that I can now speak up when its "too dark" for me and I can't hear. I have to be Cams advocate, and show him the way to be his own advocate....
I have to show him the way out of the darkness.